First off thank you to those who took the time to vote and wrote comments to help me figure out what I need to do or needed to be encouraged.
The top 3 as it stands are 3D, fan art, and charcoal. For those who have said do all the above. I will. This poll is more of a starting point and then spread.
For 3D I have a 3D weapon I started to work on few months back, but never finished due to depression. I am going to see if I could finish it this week.
After wards I have decided to model my house, at least the kitchen and living room. For a tiny house I have a lot of crap which is perfect for me to get back into modeling. I will make 2 versions. First the high res which will include the stitch and cloth fabric. Meaning! It will be the first time trying out the hair system.
For the most part I will mainly work on Maya since these are hard surface models with basic shapes; however, I will work on ZBrush for a few small things suck as the stitching, clothing wrinkles, etc since I have a laptop and Ncloth + laptop = bad over heating and more Maya crashing.
I will also make a low res version, because y not? I want to practice the difference between 3D show scenes as well as a gaming scene, and I have to make high res models anyway for the normal mapping. The key difference will be for the final texturing the high res will end up in Unreal 4 (Never touch UR4 so this will be interesting) and the low res will be in UDK 3 (I know the program and kinks to it). The reason for this is because... I honestly don't like Maya rendering and setting up the lighting/wiring. It takes forever on my laptop while UDK and Marmoset is much more amazing and time efficient.
I have also decided to combine the charcoal sketches w/ fan art on one condition. It has to be a dark theme such as Berserk. I mean I could Warframe frame as well since they are highly detailed models, but you get the idea. I also want to avoid the high end fan art. Yes, I do Pokemon, but I love Pokemon I do this more for me than anyone else. I want to focus on the less popular ones such as Dragon Nest (Yes I know it is dying. I have been playing DN since DN Sea beta. Don't care I like their art style), Saiyuki, Sypro (Yes the old school kind), .Hack series, Dark Siders, Jak and Daxter, etc. This means no Naruto, Bleach, One Piece, DBZ, Marvel, DC, etc. Actually I may allow Marvel and DC if they are characters that are not well known from the movie genre. Why not the popular fan art? Because it is everywhere. There are too many artists that are already doing this and I don't want to ban wagon for the sake of ban wagon. I would like to draw characters that are equally unique and complex as say... the Joker, but have been ignored since people have been paying attention to the joker.
If people truly only want me to only popular characters I will work on it, but I highly doubt people just want to see LOL characters, GOT characters, KH characters, DBZ, etc characters up in their faces 24/7. I get this is Deviant Art... but... that is what Tumblr is for... rawr...
With that being said I will have to delay charcoal drawings for a wee bit as I have yet to find a proper art store. For those outside of Turkey wondering, art supplies are normally sold in book stores. However most of these supplies come in ... tiny amounts and want your soul in return. They are mainly meant for arts and crafts for K-12. There are hardware stores equal to Home Depo and they do have a small selection of real art supplies, but again money. Yes, art supplies are expensive, but... American art supplies are cheaper and the currency is 2.59 lira to $1... One tiny oil painting tube was around 40 lira... I can find the same tube in the US for $4-6. Yeah... so if I consider American art supplies cheaper with that currency exchange it is a problem.
Being in the city of Istanbul I am pretty sure there are good art stores, I just have to find the right people. Makes things a bit more difficult when the system is discouraging art (any type of art, traditional and/or digital) as livable life/job/income and I swear the artists in this city are freaking ninjas as their try to hide their identity of being an artist.
Anyway thanks for reading.
This section is a more of rambles and to specific people. So you can ignore, but if you want to read it will be pretty out there and if want to know more... just read Naked to Lunch... For an idea of the mood.
Okay where to begin... Uhh... Some I haven't talked to you in a lil over a year some of you I haven't heard from in a few years and others... wow 16 years. I don't know if any of you are bothering to check up time to time. For 2 groups I doubt they are, but guess what I want a simple yes or no from you guys.
Not now... but years down the road I would like to write a novel/story. It will/can be fictional or nonfictional, but I do want you guys to be in it. These characters will essentially be you. This past year trying to be well... a "normal" person is difficult, though I don't I have tried it correct. After the incident in 2013 I have been focused on school and once I graduated I pretty much regressed in my limbo.
So I moved to Istanbul 3 weeks ago, and trying to be back to my old self. It seems hard since I don't really have any where to go. Don't really have topics I could just randomly talk about since they are not really encouraged to talked about in public... even something as simple as politics. I miss talking to everyone whether it was on Skype chatting away, the adult bar across the street when I was under age, the people who were in the Middle East time to time to serve their country and give each other advice, or even the times when we were kids and just trying to see who could swim across the pool the fastest. I miss the good, bad, ugly, even if you didn't trust me 100%. I understand why considering we are people live across each others lines.
Despite this... my older memories are fading... it makes me sad... I don't want to forget. It is easier for some since I have already have drawn you, and couple of you are in my gallery so I get to see you every day, but I know I need to do more in order to remember. I don't want you guys to become a lost memory as my orphan friend who died, or my kindergarten friend whom I haven't seen since high school and dk if he is alive or dead. I mean.. I hope he is alive and well, but ... -rambles-
One group I know we have cut all ties and this is more of a reminder. I hope you truly are ready when 2 of the 3 come back. I know you did it more for their sakes, but I also hope you know they may not recover, but instead regress. I was also told by someone another person by that group is reading to kids at libraries when he has the time. I am glad you are slowly feeling better. I know it won't heal completely, but at least you are doing something that would make them happy.
The other group you know who are. I hope everyone is doing well.
With that said. Guys do I have permission to use you/your characteristics for a book and publish it?
I don't want to do it now since I am still trying to figure out what I want to do as a calling.
I must say I am still envious of you guys since you already figured it out.
They were never easy choices, but you have in some way over come them. Who knows I might change my mind in the future, but the way I see it now is I want to remember as much as I can with times I have spent with you. Virtually and reality. I just want a simple yes or no answer. You don't need to answer here, we don't even need to see each other if you don't want to, but I do want an answer. From everyone... everyone who can answer anyway.